I have appointment in 4 days. I hate how I didn't see that there's things that could've been done early on to try to help. I did do searches. I did read. But I guess I just didn't understand the situation enough to not be blind to that. I assumed like many others it's just something that happens and it either gets better or not.
But the trauma causes oxidative stress, which then goes on to kill the hair cells. I imagined it as I think most people do, as the hairs just being physically overpowered and being killed directly, broken. It's actually chemical, and happens after.
I'm seeing things like oxygen therapy, antioxidants. You guys shoul all know this. It should be stickied, common knowledge. Maybe everyone rushes to the ENT doc after noise blasts, but I don't usually go to physicians, since I usually get better.
From what I read, I missed the window of opportunity.
It's terrible that happened to your mom. I see sometimes people online linking to sudden loud sounds and people reply upset saying they had their speakers turned up. That isn't even just an accident, because someone else caused it.
I know there's still stuff to do, and you can still make music, but I can't handle this. I'm one of those guys who really narrows in and likes to tweak the mix subtly, or craft the sound just right. My far vision isn't good and I've relied on auditory senses to make up for that.
I need this to turn out to be something else, that is healable past X number of days. Like damage somewhere else, not cell death, and it's just taking a while to heal. Inside it burns still today after listening to music last night. Maybe that's a good sign, that something is wounded and listening to music reopened the wound.
It really sucks when there's deadlines, and you don't understand the situation in time. Usually with medical stuff you can just trust your body to handle it. I did read that a ruptured ear drum can take a couple months to heal. I really hope it's that. I hope my magical dancing cells for hearing frequencies are all still happy and safe.
I think when I get a hearing test Tuesday they should test for that, by having me hear using a bone transducer type of device that would bypass the eardrum?
Either way, hearing is more vulnerable than it feels it would be.
I guess I'll try to buy some antioxidant pills or something, just in case there's still cells dying from oxidation.